Snowmobile Tilt Trailer – The project is finished – Here’s the wrap up.
This sled trailer project has been awesome. And not because it’s a beautiful tilt trailer.
A big project has been my therapy and helped me keep it together while learning to be a new mom.
Where did the idea to document a trailer even come from? What was I even thinking?
I’ve always known a desk job is not for me. I need more movement to keep my mind clear. So when being pregnant changed what I was able to do as a welder in the shop, those couple months in a different role at a desk was tough to say the least.
When I think back to sitting at work in that office, feeling the quiet panic of an approaching due date, I was repeating “maternity leave” in my head, like I was trying it on “what am I going to do with a whole year off on maternity leave?”
I am lucky and thankful I have worked hard to be in a position where taking a year off work was an option for our family. For many, I know, it’s just not.
But I was scared. Who was I without my welding identity? Who was this new ‘mom’ part of me? How could I still be both?
A trailer project turned out to be the contrast I needed. I highly recommend taking on projects before you are ready. As I was learning this new part of me, staying connected to this old part felt good! Challenges really are how we grow and learn.
But, as a tilt trailer It’s actually a little disappointing to be honest.
Let me be clear,
I DO recommend the trailer plans from www.trailerplans.com. (Good name, right?) The price is right and they have so many designs to work from that the time and energy saved in having a clear plan more than covers their cost.
I live in central BC, Canada and even though these guys are based in Texas, 3 sheets of engineer size prints arrived at my door, really quickly in a shipping tube. (I later folded them.) It was easy working from these large step by step prints.
…the tilt trailer is hard to tilt.
There it is.
Apparently this is a common problem with tilt trailers. Both sleds have to ride up at exactly the same time to tip the balance point and pivot the trailer deck back down.
How the *eff do you do that with a 1 year old?
BUT as a regular flat deck trailer, it has been functional and exactly what we need!
Attaining my lofty goal of a perfectly executed and engagingly documented project didn’t happen.
And that’s ok.
The best part of the build was learning to write (and manage) a blog. Just paying attention to my thoughts while I work and try to sift out a spark that someone might connect with.
Really letting go of my expectations about how I think it should go so I could learn all these other things.
I wanted to work through a useful project, share honestly, learn, and get back into some fabricating and welding.
The motivation to do this project – while hormone influenced – I fully admit- stayed consistent and the essential goals stayed the same.
Takeaways from the Tilt Trailer project:
- Perfection is overrated
- Welds are very hard to take nice pictures of. Reference points get lost close up.
- That even if my family can’t understand why I have to go build something, I have to take time for the things that light me up.
- I am hard on myself but ballsy enough to put my work ‘out there’
- Being a new mom is HARD
- I need a better stinger
- Ordering material is
a weaknessanother opportunity of mine.
- That collaborating with amazing people is much more interesting than staying in my own fish bowl mind.
- I learned to switch roles quickly – welder to mom – which made me feel like I had always just stepped off a stage doing a costume change.
Some mom guilt here was real. Having my son looked after, some of that formal daycare, while I did something for me, then feeling I had to show up like all the other moms, clean and well put together to pick him up.
What the hell is that??
I promise you I have no intention of thinking who I am as separate parts anymore. Just like I am not only ‘Evans mom’, I am not only a welder. All the aspects of me can coincide.Even, and especially if i don’t easily fit an archetype and ‘look’ like a welder at all times. I know it will continue to come up for me, but I do not have to choose between them.
When I show up at daycare in carharrts and a dirty respirator outline around my mouth, I want my son to see I’m stoked to share my energy with him because I’ve just spent the afternoon recharging my own spark.
What I didn’t expect to find:
That there is something here. Something I am stumbling to put into words. I’m hearing this whisper of an idea that won’t go away. Connecting my passion with doing good.
I don’t know how or what this will look like, but I have a message that is going to come out. It’s going to help me with what’s next and it’s going to help others. It’s what this blog is about. I have to keep chasing these little embers of ideas. There is a source and that fire is me I just have to connect the sparks to figure out how to let this message out in a positive, helpful way.
I’m starting to understand that inspiration inspires inspiration. It’s like a wave that grows and turns into a juggernaut force.
Inspiration inspires inspiration.
Start to finish the Snowmobile Tilt Trailer took about 2 years.
That’s doesn’t sound too good does it?
No, not the Fabricating and welding, that was a couple months. The writing, taking pictures, learning website creation, and catching up posting
…Oh yeah, and nurturing a tiny human while keeping my relationship with his dad together…
2 years. Pretty good I’d say!